uncertainty

I didn't sleep last night.
The stress of so many little things building up.
All I could do was lay there and think about so many things.

Funny, usually writing helps.
Not so much right now.
I can't even seem to get through one coherent thought before another partial thought pops up and derails me.

I know, it would help if I made a list, and focused on one thing at a time. But, so many of my thoughts seem so abstract. Every time I sit down to write, the concepts seem to disappear, and are replaced by random buzzing words... all of them racing through my head like so many bumper cars.

So many of the thoughts start out with, "what am I gonna do..."

And, they usually end with a big sigh, and an "I just don't know..."

I'm doing my best to relax and take a 'wait and see' approach... but it is so tough not to have any actual conclusions.